I like to get drunk and dance. I crave social interaction.  It gives me that passionate feeling of fulfillment that doesn’t exist in my actual living reality. The same feeling I get when I create and record music. A feeling that I have been chasing in ” the real world” and have only been able to replicate within bcp free drug and alcohol infused sex. Why can I not find this within some socially accepted career path? Is this why people chase extreme power and greed? Do different individuals all look for the same sensation, but find and connect to its home through different outlets….

I had a conversation with Chris the other day where he told me, “I just get it”. That phrase almost made me choke on my own spit. My response to my very dear friend was if I “got it” I would deny my own doubt, embody my confidence, and defeat my adversaries…both real and internally materialized. Then I might begin to “get it”.