In the first light of the morning, Josh nudged me awake and said he had to tell me something.  Once again came the barrage of promises and personal revelations. He acknowledged and apologized for acting like an ass and a child all weekend. His awful and obscene behavior. How he treated me, how he put his hands on me, how he repeatedly tries to push me away because I’m the first woman he’s ever truly loved and has actually loved him back. How he would never do these things or act this way again. He will be a better man and a better leader of our home. I am his best friend and he loves me. I do not deserve how he’s treated me recently and for the past 3 years of our relationship. He will stop saying these things and just show them through actions. He will show me how much he loves and appreciates me. He knows I work hard and knows that everything I do is for the betterment of us and to keep us a float and moving forward. He will listen to me more, and he knows the only reason I nag him is, because he is doing stupid shit and squandering money that is important to our needs as a family. He will stop lying and knows that he needs to repair and rebuild my trust.

The majority of this I have heard before, although there were some nice new additions. He is definitely becoming more articulate with expressing his apologies to me. Almost perfecting it one might say. He obviously knows what he needs to do and he knows the actions he needs to demonstrate in the quest toward becoming a better man. All I can do is hope that his follow through is as evolved as his articulation, and his sincerity is as genuine as his charm.