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In the first light of the morning, Josh nudged me awake and said he had to tell me something.  Once again came the barrage of promises and personal revelations. He [ . . . ]

At first I thrive off of the drama, but then it reaches a point where it’s simply too much to bear. Then the anger takes over, and I am left [ . . . ]

Here we are again. Regression obsession, I must be addicted to drama. I know I am. Maybe I need it to feel inspired, to feel alive, to obtain that ever [ . . . ]

I could kill him right now, but I love him too much. The lack of responsibility he exhibited last night could have endangered himself and or others and he should [ . . . ]

Jealousy is such a funny thing. I don’t know the root of it, and I don’t know why it happens. I just know that it happens to me and I [ . . . ]

Three steps forward, two steps back…if Josh had a theme song. I don’t know why he holds onto so much anger from his past and why so many little things [ . . . ]

I have to say, I have nothing to complain about. Josh is doing everything he’s been saying he’s going to do for years now. He’s going to the beach, he’s [ . . . ]

I got my period!!! Thank God! Of course there is still that slight feeling of disappointment about that barely dodged curve ball that life was about to throw at us…you [ . . . ]

We broke the sex streak and had sex twice yesterday, once during Jashar’s nap and then again shortly before midnight. Josh told me he needed to have me again, because [ . . . ]

I don’t know why I haven’t been writing this past week. There is so much to say, I just haven’t been motivated to. I plan to change that and stick [ . . . ]