My Christmas is going to be a long one this year. As soon as Josh gets home from work we are driving up to Orlando to see his family and [ . . . ]

All weekend we moved. Even though it was convenient, it was still tedious and tiresome. All I’ve been doing is moving shit and running errands. It’s good though. I definitely [ . . . ]

I have been doing so much internet research about female hormones and birth control and that it scared the shit out of me and made my head spin. Apparently, if [ . . . ]

So, it looks like we are moving next door on Friday. Slightly bigger place. Studio to a one bedroom. They really made some nice improvements. The on site property manager [ . . . ]

Saturday and Sunday left me emotionally drained yet strangely rejuvenated and calm. Saturday afternoon I realized that my doctor had prescribed me the wrong birth control and for two weeks [ . . . ]

I’m having a rather emotional experience today because I still breastfeed my son whom is twenty months.  I feel it not only gives him comfort but irrepaceable immunity that has [ . . . ]

My son slept for eight hours straight last night! This has never happened since ever!!! Of course my sleep cycles are so fucked up I still woke up four or [ . . . ]

As if lobotomized, I feel the manipulation coursing through my veins. My very being tainted with doubt and confusion. I feel halfway in and halfway out right now. I had [ . . . ]

This all started four years ago, much of it will be revisited…but for now we begin here…Josh, who is my greatest love and biggest mistake as well as possible best [ . . . ]